faster faster

I want to hear the questions on the tip of your tongue.
i want to hear everything you've ever wondered.
let me sling shit in your direction until you understand
that i do not actually know reasoning for what i'm doing.
i trust my gut, i do what feels right,
and that's all i can say for myself.
how can you ask for my plans for the future when i live lifestyles with shortened life expectancies?
i'm just going to go on and do it

i want to be a poet
i want to be a soldier
this means
that i'll be drunk
most likely
because both poets and soldiers drink
to forget
to remember
and as of right now i don't need to do either

i'm just trying to stay focused in the right now
i'm just a raindrop
not yet hitting the water
but gaining speed
i want to reach
terminal velocity
i want to go
faster

i want to go faster and run away from all the bad things in the world so i can live happily ever after and miss out on all the terrible things in life that i feel every hero needs to do so that he can balance it out by living till the end in blissful joy.
i want to go faster and run towards the future beating it here to now and know that everyone i love has met me here so that they can hear my panting and know i was just trying to get back to them as soon as possible
i want to go faster because i never really liked the smell of roses and i dont think light could catch up to me if i was really trying.
i want to go faster and swallow the world in my own personal black hole since the sun is such a lard ass
i want to go faster so i can answer all the questions you could ever ask because my brain works to slow to figure out what they are.

so tell me
what you've wanted to ask